Reflections: Where am I standing at the moment?

As time passes by, I've met a lot of great people,great friends with great visions and missions. I am so grateful that Allah gives me opportunity to meet them. And I long to be part of the groups, to be successful in life, serve the humanity and achieve my purpose of life as Allah asks us to. And to enter Jannah in the end.

It is been 3 months since I last made my new year resolutions and I think I've lost my track due to some circumstances.

1. Have intimate relationship with Allah. I want to be more khusyuk in solat and understand al-quran more and more.

2. Make sure all my ibadah ritual and normal routine is done for the sake of Allah. As mentioned by Ibnu Taimiyyah, ibadah is a 'comprehensive term,encompassing all apparent and hidden acts and statements that are beloved to Allah.'.It means both ritual (solah, zakat,hajj,umrah) and natural actions (sleep, study, work, eat, travelling.etc) are done with niat for Allah.

3. Be good to people and friends around me. The sweetness of iman cant be achieved if I cant love and be good to all people around me regardless things that they have said or done,no matter how big my problem is and whenever and whoever i meet. I hope this is one way of doing dakwa, invite people to Allah and Islam.

4. Be more hardworking, focused, and itqan (bersungguh-sungguh) in my studies. I should spend at least 2 hours of quality time for my studies.

5. Take as much opportunities to get involved in dakwa programme or talk. Meet people of soleh and solehah will help me rejuvenate my faith and relationship with Allah. Help me to get back to where I am supposed to be, being a slave of Allah. To be khalifa and serve the humanity.

6. Get active as much as i can. Focused in whatever I do. Guitar, sports, keyboard.

O Allah, guide us to the right path, the path that You please and redha. Guide us to a great human,as you asks us to be. And guide us from being astray and overwhelmed by this dunia, protect us from being people of useless (khosirin). Amen.

People come and go with a reason

Nothing is permanent except the change itself. So is, especially our life

Believe it or not,we keep meeting different people in our life. It can be strangers in the street, new neighbour or neighbour that we never meet, batch mate, university mate, etc.

The best thing is when we get to meet someone who can help us to become a better person, find the key to reveal our hidden potentials, boost our confidence and see the world in a brighter way. It so true when Prophet Muhammad reminded us that a good friend and a bad friend are like a perfume-seller and a blacksmith: The perfume-seller might give you some perfume as a gift, or you might buy some from him, or at least you might smell its fragrance. As for the blacksmith, he might singe your clothes, and at the very least you will breathe in the fumes of the furnace.” [Bukhari, Muslim]. We get to choose our friend. We are the one who makes the decision for ourselves.


But who ever we meet,  there is surely a reason. The best thing is how we can make the best of it. And most important thing is to treat them in the best way we could. Those who love everyone in this world will be loved by everyone in the heaven. =)

Propofol dan MJ.

Dah 3 minggu aku kat anaesthesia block ,hari-hari tengok orang bagi propofol, sejenis anesthetic drug berwarna putih macam susu yang orang guna dalam operation untuk bagi orang tidur, tak rasa sakit (tapi kena bagi jugak painkiller yang lain) semasa operation dan bagi otot relax sikit.

Propofol ni memang dikira ubat paling bahaya dalam hospital tu. Berfungsi dengan depress sistem pernafasan,jantung dan segala-galanya so that anaesthetic machine bole take over semua sistem tu dan kita boleh monitor kat skrin. Kalau bagi pastu overdose pulak tu kompemla meninggal macam Micheal Jackson. Apa la yang MJ guna propofol dalam rumah tu aku pun tak pasti. Aku pernah ikut sekali jek trial report dia. MJ hire private anaesthetist untuk kera kat rumah agam dia. Tapi kenapa, cari lah kat internet.

Rasa cam cool kerja anaesthetist ni,mungkin satu karier yang aku akan pilih nanti lepas start kerja nanti. Hik

We are all padawan

I did not know what padawan was until my guitar teacher referred to my lesson as 'class for young padawan' 2 days ago.At first, it sounded like kadazan or pahlawan to me. So I looked up in the dictionary and found the meaning in the urban dictionary (again).

When you call someone as padawan,  it means that someone is learning something to be good as you are. Originally it was used to refer to a Jedi pupil in Star Wars. I have watched Star Wars before but hardly remember what it is about. Well, that is how words in urban dictionary come from. I personally find those words interestingly cool.

Anyway, no matter what we do in life, the best of doing it is to do it better and better everyday. 'To live today better than yesterday' applies to all aspects of life.

Personally, I have several things on top of my list I wish I can make it better very single day.

1. Relationship with Allah: Deep in my hart I really want to have very close relationship with Allah because I know He is The King of Universe. He Owns and Controls every single thing on the earth. Only Allah we ask help from and we should believe when He says 'Ask for anything, I will answer your prayers'. Isn't sweet? He is The Most Kind and Most Gracious that if we prays for something we will get it as long as we follow what Allah asks us to do.  There are 3 ways of how Allah give us the answers.

• He answers our prayers.
• Not yet answered.
• He has a better plan for us. 

How we shall believe these? 'I am of what you think of Me'. If we put a positive mindset about Allah and believe with our heart everything He says in Quran , then positive thing is what we get in return. Then the rest of the things we wish for insyaAllah will be granted.

2. Personal development :I am so impressed with those whose life are dedicated to others and give impact to their life in a positive manner. Their attributions can be anything. Pearls of wisdom, brilliant ideas,lectures or talks on inviting others to remembrance of Allah, financial helps, a caring and concerned friend, being charismatic, motivations,et cetera.

I dont mean it to be living for the sake of other people, but I believe it is how we are supposed to live, in a different. The purpose of living is one. To worship Allah or in other words, to please Allah. And of the ways is to live by contributing to others. 'You are the best of peoples ever raised up for mankind' 3:110. 

The best people  here mean those those who can influence or give good deed to others. And how we reach that stage is to change ourselves first. Islam taught us a lot on tazkiyah nafsiah (cleaning ourselves) from negative thoughts,bad deeds, astray from the Creator and replace it with positive attitudes, correct creed, right life philosophy. a complete way of life. 


I am still looking forward to improving myself and having positive attitudes everyday. To be firm and confident, focused on what I am doing, be hardworking and organized, calm and responsible with my own self. Not to let obscuring, doubt, and fear get in my way to the great achievements.
 

Daripada gale-force wind hingga ke Hurricane Bawbag

Hari ini bumi Scotland (terutamanya) dan Ireland dilanda taufan yang paling dasyat dalam sejarah. Hampir semua sekolah ditutup, semua jambatan dan banyak jalan raya ditutup, servis bas dan keretapi dibatalkan. Bukan tu je,banjir pun join memeriahkan lagi bencana alam kali ni terutama kawasan dekat-dekat dengan tasik dan laut sampai tenggelam separuh kereta-kereta yang tak bernasib baik ter'parking' di situ.

University of Glasgow telah mengirim 3 pucuk email memberitahu semua kelas dibatalkan dan semua exam hari ni akan ditangguhkan a.k.a 'HARI NI UNI TUTUP, SO KORANG ENJOY UPDATE FACEBOOK PASAL HURRICANE KAT RUMAH KORANG JEKLA YEK. LUAHKAN PERASAAN KEKECEWAAN (TENTANG KUATNYA ANGIN DAN KESANNYA) DAN KEGEMBIRAAN (TAKDE KELAS) DI STATUS MASING2 DAN MARI LIHAT SIAPA YANG PALING BANYAK ORANG 'LIKE' DAN 'COMMENT' STATUS ANDA'.

Tetapi aku tetap gagah berjalan merentas angin kencang untuk ke hospital (10 minit jalan belakang rumah jek) sebab kena jumpa supervisor. Dan aku selamat dan tidak terbang ditiup angin dalam perjalanan balik petang tadi. Oh, aku join update status malam.

Aku tidak terkecuali untuk jadi orang yang cuba update berita pasal taufan ni. Maka keluarlah beberapa vocab baru kat berita BBC lalu aku pun google la ape maksudnya.

1.  Gale-force wind

Aku ingatkan unit baru untuk angin, tetapi gale tu refer pada bacaaan kelajuan tertentu dalam Beaufort scale. Dengan erti lainnya refer pada very strong wind. Well,it was gale-force wind this morning but it worsened and had become hurricane. Gale juga boleh digunakan dalam konteks gelak terbahak-bahak  Eg:Gales of laughter.

2. Hurricane Bawbag.

Yang ni memang tak boleh blah. Bawbag tu kalau bukak urban dictionary (maksudnya bukan proper English ,at least not yet), bawbag ialah colloquial (local) term yang digunakan oleh rakyat tempatan Scotland yang membawa maksud bodoh,dungu dan tak guna.(useless,plain stupid person) Ia juga refer pada scrotum lelaki. Kiranya orang yang bongok tu ,tahap dungunya disamakan dengan male genital part yang kurang cantik tu. Kamus tu yang cakaplah.

Adoyai,siapalah yang mula menggunakan perkataan yang hodoh tu untuk menamakan taufan kali ni. Kiranya dorang menyumpah la sebab taufan dan angin kencang ni sangat teruk dan mengganggu aktiviti hidup dorang. Jeng jeng jeng. INI SALAH SATU PERBEZAAN ANTARA ORANG BERIMAN DAN TIDAK BERIMAN.

Orang beriman akan reflect taufan kali ini sebagai ujian atau tanda amaran atas kerosakan yang berlaku atas bumi ini oleh Pemiliknya. Takut kot bayangkan Tuhan murka, tu baru angin kencang sikit tak terbang lagi. Belum lagi bumi diterbalikkan atau banjir macam tsunami yang horror tu.

Tapi orang tidak beriman mengeluh ,menyumpah dan mengherdik (dalam hati) dengan angin kencang macam ini. Tapi mana ada orang berani menyumpah atau mempermainkan banjir besar Jepun awal tahun ni kecuali seorang kartunis Berita Harian(sebab buat lawak bodoh guna Ultraman) dan seorang isteri Perdana Menteri (sebab bagi buah fikiran dangkal).

Kesimpulannya, buka mata, berfikir dan belajarlah daripada apa yang jadi dalam hidup kita tak kira daripada segi ilmu, vocab, iktibar atau apa-apa jua. Kehidupan.

Penguin yang berasa syahdu

Snow datang lagi. 


Jalan pejalan kaki dan jalan raya penuh dengan ais yang telah keras dan licin. Sebiji macam ais dalam peti sejuk. Terasa diri comel jalan macam penguin atas ais-ais tu sebab nak elakkan daripada jatuh. Tapi takdir telah menentukan aku jatuh juga dalam perjalanan dari rumah ke hospital pagi ni. Nasib baik tiada orang nampak. Yang aku perasaan takdelah.


Mungkin ada dosa yang Allah bermurah hati nak ampunkan bila aku jatuh. Nasib baik seluar tak kotor dan takde
luka apa-apa.


Itulah panahan salji. Memang teringin dan gembira teruja dapat main salji lagi tahun ini, tapi bila salji tu dah keras, terpaksalah seluruh warga Glasgow ni menghadapinya dengan tabah ermasuk nenek2 dan atuk2 osteoporosis yang jalan pun tak stabil. Bukan benda remeh boleh buat gelak goleng.Sekali jatuh boleh patah pinggang,punggung,belakang dan segala-gala tulang yang ada. 


Alhamdulillah banyak juga aku dapat sign hari ini. (Ada benda-benda tertentu yang kena observe dan buat untuk ophthalmology block ni. ).


Balik dari hospital tadi saya buka video clip yang dipos oleh seorang kawan di facebook. Terharu dan syahdu tiba-tiba dengar lirik dia. 


http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=2J9DIWKZzDA


::Kami persembahkan jiwa-jiwa kami kepada Allah
::Tiada ketakutan dan kesedihan bagi sesiapa yang diberi petunjuk olehNya
::Talinya kukuh tak akan terlerai
::RezekiNya sentiada ada buat yang memerlukan.


::Di setiap tempat
::di setiap ketika
::DI atas sana ada Tuhan Yang Maha agung memeliharamu
::Di mana jua
::Pada bila-bila masa
::Kau punya Tuhan yang menyayangimu dan tidak pernah melupakanmu


::Adakah kita masih punya takut terhadapNya?
::Adakah kita perasan nikmat Allah kepada kita?
::Adakah kita masih punya takut terhadapNya?
::Adakah kita masih memujiNya?
Atau
::Adakah kita sudah melupaiNya?


::Tiada Tuhan selain Allah..


Kalau kita boleh berhenti sejenak dan befikir, mengaitkan segala yang terjadi dalam hidup kita sebagai nikmat daripada Pencipta kita. =)

'Erti hidup pada memberi'-H

'Orang yang hidup untuk dirinya sendiri akan hidup seperti orang yang kerdil dan mati sebagai orang yang kerdil.


Tetapi orang yang hidup bagi orang lain akan hidup sebagai orang 'besar' dan mati sebagai orang yang besar juga.'


-syed qutb-